Archive for November, 2008


Conjure Love

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November 30, 2008

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By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

 

Hypnotized by your spell

In a daze I wander this world

Feeling strong and confident

Sometimes weak and confused

Restless nights my thoughts turn to you

That voodoo you do has me lovesick

Your scent lingers in the air

The smell of a sensual fruit arouses my senses

Times I have tried to forget you

Memories of you burn in my mind

I say your name

You appear

Then you are gone

It was but an apparition of what once was

Spellbound

Weaving your magical conjure

Trapping yourself in my thoughts

Binding my thoughts to yourself

Bridging us together Soul 2 Soul

Heart 2 Heart

Where I run you follow

Mind over matter

But is it really

Science vs. Magic

That voodoo you do

Amazing

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A Great Big Thank You to All

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November 26, 2008

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By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

 

Well I guess their comes a point in time where I express my thanks to all that have visited, commented, critiqued, helped, and helped me perfect this site. 4 months is a short time, but to me a lot of things transpired within this time that help to shape the events in my writing. Everything is an inspiration if you let it be. I have found that in order to experience true beauty and life a fulfilled life you must keep an open mind and receive the gift given to you! I am extremely proud of this site, and I am happy that I finally started to take my writing serious. I’ve always knew that I had a lot to say and this website Poetic Mindstate is just the beginning.

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Balancing Force

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November 23, 2008

 

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

 

A warrior lives within me

Fierce

Calm

Driven by a thirst for excitement

Uncontrollable

Stable

An indestructible power if strength and wisdom

Powerful

Meek

A divine gift not easily taken

Intelligent

Insane

Protector of lost souls; Destroyer of false hopes

Life

Death

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A Tortured Soul: No Rest No Peace

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November 16, 2008

 

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

 

In a state of denial

The focus is lost

A shattered being lost in time and space

Void of light and emotion

Motivational karma blocked by a powerful self denial

The feelings within fight for peace and stability

At any moment chaos threatens to erupt

Spewing forth confusion and self doubt

Voices

So many voices

So many lies

So many truths

Mind shutting down

Turning within itself

Body becomes weary

Outside reality becomes skewed suffering from neglect

Loved ones become enemies

Questions arise

No answer is found

Negativity eats away at the fabric of sanity

Hearts turn cold

Absent is emotion

Lost is the will to live

No rest

No peace

A tortured soul

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Lost in My Soul

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November 13, 2008

 

 

 

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

 

In the depths of this mess

I rest from the stress

My heart is shattered

But my soul untested

Cautiously I plan or do I really?

I don’t believe I can go through the fire

Rescue me

Save me

I am falling into a darkness of recession

The last faint hope is severed

I’m lost

I’m lost

My fall ends with a painful thud

Out of the murk and into the dirt I emerge

Without the love and care of another

I struggle to find my way

Through trial and error I learn the path

The loss of affection has toughened my soul

I feel brand new

I see a distant light

I start to ascend to new heights

Never to look back on the dark past

I have no regrets on this road to prosperity

My journey to my endless destiny has begun

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Without My Father

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November 10, 2008

 

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

 

Who is this stranger that speaks to me?

He’s but another face in the crowd

A scar to me on humanity

It’s been years void of your love and affection

Lucid dreams of my father

What is he like? What did he do?

But violence consumed you

Liquid spirits consumed your thoughts

Influenced by powered demons up your nose

I speak to you today

A better man

A righteous man

Hunted by the ghost of the past

Hardened by the absence of your fatherly strength

You disappeared from our life

From me

From us

Was it tough times?

Young making difficult decisions

Your thoughts unclear

You attacked us

You hurt me

For years I cried for my fathers love

For years I ached for your acceptance

For years a young child needed the answers to a million questions

Over time my demons have passed

I have learned

I have matured

I have loved

I have forgiven

All without my father

 

 

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My Commander and Chief My President: A Change has come to America

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November 5, 2008

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By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

 

I am excited and deeply moved at the events that have happened on this historic day! President Barack Obama and I am so proud to say that! I was full of emotion at the news that something like this can happen in my lifetime. America’s dream has finally been given life on the other side of the coin. I love this moment, I am proud to fight for my country!

OBAMA!!!

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Never Got to Say Goodbye (For my Sister)

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November 3, 2008

 

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

 

A beautiful soul

So lovely a lady

Gone from the world

But not from my heart

These words I speak

Your ear will never hear

Tragedy struck at so young an age

My anger runs deep

Rage burns within

So beautiful your soul

Now floats above

My hearts in pieces

I cried that day

First time in awhile

For a moment I was you

Enduring the struggle

Shedding the tears

Feeling the pain

As the time grew short

Your last breath drawn

Peace replaced the fear in your eyes

Your tortured soul released from its earth bound prison

Memories I hold of you both good and bad

Will remain with me for eternity

Your soul finally resting

My rage is subsiding

Words never said to your living ear

I feel your spirit listening

Forever with me you will remain

My beautiful sister

Katesia Marshae Weathers

(Sept 14, 1980- Oct 27, 2007)

I love you

RIP

 

 

 

 

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Unfaithfully

Filed under: Emotional Writing, Poems of Expression, Poetic Love — 2 Comments
November 1, 2008

 

 

By: Tony L. Jefferson, Jr.

 

I wish you could see the pain in my heart

My soul, shredded by your tryst of passion

My mind is a mass of confusion and agony

My passionate heart shattered like glass

 

Unfaithfully

 

I can’t stand to look into your eyes

You lie through your teeth

You insult my intelligence

Your mouth speaks volumes, but your heart is untrue

 

Unfaithfully

 

Questions arise and plague my thoughts

Was it me? Was it you? Does it even matter?

Your warm embrace has turned ice cold

Our existence slips and falls into an unholy darkness

 

Unfaithfully

 

It is clear to me now

All of the pain was for nothing

My soul has been redeemed

My heart has been restored

 

Unfaithfully

 

Now I hear you are with another

But your transgressions cause your new fling to suffer

You come to me for a second chance

Before I submit to your pleas I go into deep thought

 

Unfaithfully

 

Should I? Could I? Would I?

Endure the pain; Trust you again; Love you for a second time

My answer is complex and painful many tearful nights I have spent on this

The answer to that is….

 

Unfaithfully

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